Autumn Grace

New Beginnings

Six years ago, this day marked the official end of my marriage.  The court documents were judge signed and date stamped.  Legally, I was no longer a wife.  I was single.  I was a single mom of four.

More than that though I was still a daughter of the King.  I was still in relationship with a loving Savior who had not missed a detail of the daily six months and one day it took me to get to this day.  He had walked with me.  He had literally held me up when I couldn’t stand.  Sometimes, he didn’t just hold me up, sometimes He told me to “get up.”

When Jesus healed in the Bible He commanded the infirm to “get up.”  (Matthew 9:6; Mark 5:41; Luke 6:8; Luke 7:14)

GET UP

It’s a decision.  It’s a determining.  It’s an on purpose, intentional, guarding our very lives, action.

When life doesn’t give us the happy endings we imaged, we need to decide that we still believe in God’s promises.  If you’ve lived your life as a Christian, sometimes it’s extra hard to get this.  You may have bought into a lie that if you do A + B you get C.  The problem with that equation is that it doesn’t factor in free will. We may well do A + B but since relationships and life don’t just involve one person, it doesn’t always equal C.

Psalm 119:11 says, “I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you.” (NIV)

The Hebrew word for “word” in that passage is ‘imrah which is a synonym of the word dabar- it doesn’t just mean word, it means promise.  We need to have God’s Word hidden in our hearts so that we can not only be sin-free BUT so that we can remember His promises to us.  When it’s all looking black and hopeless we need to remember.

New Beginnings

God is an expert at new beginnings.  Think of Creation.  (See Genesis 1.)  There was nothing.  There was void and blackness and emptiness.  Yet, just at God’s spoken Word it overflowed with life, light, fullness, beauty.  That’s the kind of new beginning God has in mind for us.  A life of unwritten chapters that are filled with life, light, fullness and beauty.

When my dreams were dead and gone I let them go.  It was painful.  I asked God to un-knit my heart from someone who no longer shared my dreams or my love.  He did that.  (Note:  I had to ask.)  Then I asked God for new dreams…and somewhere down deep my broken heart also asked for new love.

New dreams unfold over time.  No matter how fervently I prayed to understand the new dreams God had for me, I couldn’t see them.  I wanted to get started on them right away.  (So Type A.)  I didn’t want to muddle through healing.  I wanted to move on, move forward, get to getting on, take charge.

But alas, new dreams, they only come over time.  BUT THEY DO COME!  Yes, I’m shouting!  THEY DO COME!

New dreams, new beginnings come!  God does keep His promises.  Not always in our timing, almost always not in the way we think- but He always keeps them.

Isaiah 43:18, “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.  See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?  I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.” (NIV)

Isaiah 48:17, “This is what the Lord says- your Redeemer, The Holy One of Israel: ‘I am the Lord your God, who teaches you what is best for you, who directs you in the way you should go.’ (NIV)

Did you catch those beautiful words- “doing a new thing; springs up”…He wants us to believe it.  He wants us to hope in a new thing, a new beginning.  He wants to reveal it to us but it’s slowly.  When we can’t see that He is working on our behalf, creating new dreams, new life- He wants us to trust. Trust His promises.  Trust His character.  Trust who we know He is.

When we need to know the way to go through our desert, He doesn’t just show us.  He blazes the trail before us!  He provides what we need in the midst of our parched circumstance.  He doesn’t leave us on our own to figure it out. He teaches us and directs us.  Those are promises!

God did give me a new beginning.  Not because of who I am, but because of who He is. Not because I did A + B to get my happy ending.  But because He is a good, loving, generous God who is an expert at new beginnings.  I did have to determine to get up.  But even that decision was a result of His strength and His power, not my own.

Six years later my life is full to overflowing with new dreams and new love.  It’s not perfect, there’s lots of messy, unkempt parts that God is still working on, but I’m living a new beginning.  And it’s crazy beautiful because God is crazy faithful.

~Cory-Lynn

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